Now, say it with me: Sleep, sleep, sleepsleepsleep!
Honestly, that's the constant in the equation of my blogging. Blog = sleep(reflections on life/deep thoughts of the day)... If I could make a proof of this, I so would. In fact, the proof is this: My "blog-worthy" ideas are mainly created between the worlds of sleep and wake. I seem to be proud of what I type as my eyelids begin to act as a curtain to the screen, when my body decides to create the horizontal pattern of familiar and comforting sleep, when my active mind begins to cease communicating with my beating heart (honestly, this never stops)... Hence, the blogging will never stop :).
Days have been wonderful- Los Campesinos! turned out to be an absolutely amazing day/experience, visiting with friends throughout the week was truly refreshing (and planning some more hang-outs throughout the rest of the summer), and I returned home some 40-minutes ago only to be greeted by this spurt of energy.
Camp was extremely bittersweet to end (however, I have three baby-sitting offers... Yesssss <3). This was probably the most enjoyable summer I've had in quite some time... Work could have been hell; I could have decided to let the negative aspects of some of the counselors affect me, but I wanted to focus on the kids. My goal was to become the counselor that the kids will remember, the person that could bring a smile about yet instill the tougher life lessons into their sweet minds (such as sharing is caring, it can be fun, use your manners, be kind)... The chilluns made my life complete :).
It's strange to think about all the free time I have now... I can lay around in the park, finally read my books/magazines, gradually move into my apartment, SLEEP, babysit... Man oh man. How about writing as well (I need to get a few kinks out of some poems). I feel as if it is time to accept one of these activities (and I bet everyone can guess which one I've decided on).
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Saturday, August 22, 2009
My love, I am the speed of sound...
Here I sit, still unable to sleep... Call it what you will. I'm feeling the rush of good conversation, the excitement for today's/tonight's festivities (LOS CAMPESINOS! IS FINALLY HAPPENING! Plus, visiting with Deanna <3!), songs running through my head, planning the next few days...
I have always felt that little actions can say so much more than larger ones- how remembering the most minute detail stakes a claim to listening, to thoughtfulness, to desiring to make one smile when acted out. Within these past few days (and one of those days not being the best mind you), certain friends surprised me with their visiting SD, bringing pineapple juice (pineapples are my favorite fruit EVER), simply calling to say hello and share a story, or sitting beside a computer to chat for a while. One of my campers surprised me today with a very cute tote bag and little note... and it was the absolute sweetest thing that has happened in quite some time.
What does this all lead to? I want to take more notice in the minute. The smaller gestures truly display one's personality, whereas the larger actions act as generalizations, a basis of foundation for the smaller to grow and thrive, to bloom within the midst of good deeds or wilt into the abyss of nightmares past. Perhaps I'll try and make it a goal to encompass the element of surprise into my repertoire... to create a focus of smaller steps towards a bigger picture of overall joy. If I can bring a smile to one person a day, I have done my job :).
I believe sleep has finally decided to shine itself towards me to enter into the nighttime sky of dreamworld. Goooodbye!
I have always felt that little actions can say so much more than larger ones- how remembering the most minute detail stakes a claim to listening, to thoughtfulness, to desiring to make one smile when acted out. Within these past few days (and one of those days not being the best mind you), certain friends surprised me with their visiting SD, bringing pineapple juice (pineapples are my favorite fruit EVER), simply calling to say hello and share a story, or sitting beside a computer to chat for a while. One of my campers surprised me today with a very cute tote bag and little note... and it was the absolute sweetest thing that has happened in quite some time.
What does this all lead to? I want to take more notice in the minute. The smaller gestures truly display one's personality, whereas the larger actions act as generalizations, a basis of foundation for the smaller to grow and thrive, to bloom within the midst of good deeds or wilt into the abyss of nightmares past. Perhaps I'll try and make it a goal to encompass the element of surprise into my repertoire... to create a focus of smaller steps towards a bigger picture of overall joy. If I can bring a smile to one person a day, I have done my job :).
I believe sleep has finally decided to shine itself towards me to enter into the nighttime sky of dreamworld. Goooodbye!
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Do the dance like on a mission, it's wild I tell you it's my transition!
Life-Goals much?
Considering post-camp (AKA Dino Rocks for me) is over in two days, and post-post camp ends on the 28th (I may cry a little, not gonna lie), I randomly began to think about the other things I have to do... or, moreso, what I wanted to do. Yes, I've done the list of "Things I Want to Do Before I Go Back to the 'Vine," but I have yet to indulge in a life-list, a list of tasks and desires that I want to eventually occur. SO, let's do it. Especially since I'm waiting on sugar cookies from Trader Joes to be made (and my oh my, they smell delightful!)
* Eat at one of Rick Bayless' restaurants (He won Top Chef Masters! This makes me happy. I want to be best friends with him)
* Publishing Round Two :) Moreso, get in a book. Aspire to get my own publishing deal for my poems (... oooooh yikes, that makes me shake in the knees!)
* Own an article of Marc Jacobs attire :) (Marc by Marc Jacobs probably... Hey, I can be materialistic)
* Read more classic literature (I'm reading Lolita right now <3) (This includes getting into Vonnegut and Carver more)
* GUITAR. Yessss.
* Continue playing my flute (I need to find all my music teehee)
* Learn how to walk comfortably in heels (... weow, girl moment much?)
* Sing in a jazz club (... this is where life gets really dreamy)
* See the following in concert: Stars, The Pains of Being Pure at Heart, Ra Ra Riot, Broken Social Scene, Bat for Lashes
* Go to: Spain, Paris, The U.K.
* I guess that whole getting-married-having-kids dealio can be part of this list too :P (But for now, let's keep that in the far-off future!).
... This list could go on forever, but sleep is beckoning me :)
Considering post-camp (AKA Dino Rocks for me) is over in two days, and post-post camp ends on the 28th (I may cry a little, not gonna lie), I randomly began to think about the other things I have to do... or, moreso, what I wanted to do. Yes, I've done the list of "Things I Want to Do Before I Go Back to the 'Vine," but I have yet to indulge in a life-list, a list of tasks and desires that I want to eventually occur. SO, let's do it. Especially since I'm waiting on sugar cookies from Trader Joes to be made (and my oh my, they smell delightful!)
* Eat at one of Rick Bayless' restaurants (He won Top Chef Masters! This makes me happy. I want to be best friends with him)
* Publishing Round Two :) Moreso, get in a book. Aspire to get my own publishing deal for my poems (... oooooh yikes, that makes me shake in the knees!)
* Own an article of Marc Jacobs attire :) (Marc by Marc Jacobs probably... Hey, I can be materialistic)
* Read more classic literature (I'm reading Lolita right now <3) (This includes getting into Vonnegut and Carver more)
* GUITAR. Yessss.
* Continue playing my flute (I need to find all my music teehee)
* Learn how to walk comfortably in heels (... weow, girl moment much?)
* Sing in a jazz club (... this is where life gets really dreamy)
* See the following in concert: Stars, The Pains of Being Pure at Heart, Ra Ra Riot, Broken Social Scene, Bat for Lashes
* Go to: Spain, Paris, The U.K.
* I guess that whole getting-married-having-kids dealio can be part of this list too :P (But for now, let's keep that in the far-off future!).
... This list could go on forever, but sleep is beckoning me :)
Sunday, August 16, 2009
We wonder, oh, we're wondering, Unalike to say we're lost, Try my best with needing us
Today, I got my first kiss. I'm 56
Obviously, not me. Definitely not 56... But, if you think about this "FML" moment, there's honestly such a beauty in it. One can imagine the journey towards what is considered a monumental moment in terms of one's youth... If this person could realize it, they are experiencing a moment of youth, the vivacity of teenage excitement coursing through their lips. Perhaps I am completely spinning this in a far-off direction, but in a world where one wishes to grow-up so much faster than live within the meddling world of teenage desire and angst and bliss, perhaps this is a valid perspective.
There is such a mix-up of growing up vs. staying young. Within each, one opts towards desiring the other... When life becomes too complex, one fantasizes over the days where the biggest conflict was which swing to play on. Or, towards the future, where a problem will be a simple dip within the span of life. I know teenage angst will leave the bloodstream eventually, but the bliss of youthfulness should remain constant.
Let's just say I'm trying to find the balance between the world of the grown-ups and the world of childhood. Here's to the balancing act to come!
Obviously, not me. Definitely not 56... But, if you think about this "FML" moment, there's honestly such a beauty in it. One can imagine the journey towards what is considered a monumental moment in terms of one's youth... If this person could realize it, they are experiencing a moment of youth, the vivacity of teenage excitement coursing through their lips. Perhaps I am completely spinning this in a far-off direction, but in a world where one wishes to grow-up so much faster than live within the meddling world of teenage desire and angst and bliss, perhaps this is a valid perspective.
There is such a mix-up of growing up vs. staying young. Within each, one opts towards desiring the other... When life becomes too complex, one fantasizes over the days where the biggest conflict was which swing to play on. Or, towards the future, where a problem will be a simple dip within the span of life. I know teenage angst will leave the bloodstream eventually, but the bliss of youthfulness should remain constant.
Let's just say I'm trying to find the balance between the world of the grown-ups and the world of childhood. Here's to the balancing act to come!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
You're an actor out of work, I think I love you, I think I'm mad
Oh my, some time has certainly passed!
I planned on doing some big, heart-felt blog on the last moments of being 20, how excited I was to turn 21... But the days continued to creep up on me until BAM! They arrived and left just as swiftly.
Well, hello world: meet the 21-year-old Carly!
It was absolutely lovely. The bonfire turned out to be a fun time of quick reunions, many hugs, and relaxation (with no burns! MWAHAHA). My birthday dinner was absolutely amazing- 6 of my best friends + my sister = the most beautiful and enjoyable meal of my life, pretty much. It was so delicious! The view, the pictures that resulted, playing Apples to Apples... ahhh, such a wonderful time :) And last but not least, my grandma and I went on a shopping excursion, and I got some of the most beautiful clothes in the history of clothing. If this doesn't inspire me to actually start Moxy Lovechild, I don't know what will :P
Camp is almost over, meaning big camp-time is over this week! I am, however, working two extra weeks, which will be nice in terms of collecting some moolah before I leave for school...
Ahh, school. I'm so excited to go back to Irvine... But I can still last out in SD for some time. This summer has been absolutely beautiful- so eventful, so joyous for the most part... Yes yes.
If anything, I feel the need to start cramming whatever summer activities I have not done into the next month or so... Is a list in order? It's quite possible. And by quite possible, I mean it's happening.
* Acquire my entire music list (ooooh I think this will happen!)
* Learn guitar (pleaseeeeee)
* Record a song or two :)
* Los Campesinos! concert :D
* Visit Irvine at least one more time before school starts
* Movie nights with ACE (dress up/Del Mar movie theatre with the Pannikan)
* Possibly try some surf and turf fries... man oh man, do those sound delicious!
- Side Note: Elif and I are totally talking about food right now. We want the above and ramen noodles and cheesecake delivered to our houses (we both have weird colds/throat issues).
* SAVE MONEY (... hahahaha)
I think that is enough. The blog is feeling slightly dry, but I'm hoping it was entertaining nevertheless!
I planned on doing some big, heart-felt blog on the last moments of being 20, how excited I was to turn 21... But the days continued to creep up on me until BAM! They arrived and left just as swiftly.
Well, hello world: meet the 21-year-old Carly!
It was absolutely lovely. The bonfire turned out to be a fun time of quick reunions, many hugs, and relaxation (with no burns! MWAHAHA). My birthday dinner was absolutely amazing- 6 of my best friends + my sister = the most beautiful and enjoyable meal of my life, pretty much. It was so delicious! The view, the pictures that resulted, playing Apples to Apples... ahhh, such a wonderful time :) And last but not least, my grandma and I went on a shopping excursion, and I got some of the most beautiful clothes in the history of clothing. If this doesn't inspire me to actually start Moxy Lovechild, I don't know what will :P
Camp is almost over, meaning big camp-time is over this week! I am, however, working two extra weeks, which will be nice in terms of collecting some moolah before I leave for school...
Ahh, school. I'm so excited to go back to Irvine... But I can still last out in SD for some time. This summer has been absolutely beautiful- so eventful, so joyous for the most part... Yes yes.
If anything, I feel the need to start cramming whatever summer activities I have not done into the next month or so... Is a list in order? It's quite possible. And by quite possible, I mean it's happening.
* Acquire my entire music list (ooooh I think this will happen!)
* Learn guitar (pleaseeeeee)
* Record a song or two :)
* Los Campesinos! concert :D
* Visit Irvine at least one more time before school starts
* Movie nights with ACE (dress up/Del Mar movie theatre with the Pannikan)
* Possibly try some surf and turf fries... man oh man, do those sound delicious!
- Side Note: Elif and I are totally talking about food right now. We want the above and ramen noodles and cheesecake delivered to our houses (we both have weird colds/throat issues).
* SAVE MONEY (... hahahaha)
I think that is enough. The blog is feeling slightly dry, but I'm hoping it was entertaining nevertheless!
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